Belle

 
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Age: 20 Year Diagnosed: 2014 Location: San Leandro, Ca

“The year I was diagnosed I also got my first insulin pump. I have always been someone who isn't very shy, and will always speak up for myself. I was going to a concert one night, and I had to go through a metal detector. I was wearing a dress and had my pump clipped on my underwear underneath. When I went through the detector, it sensed my pump and made it go off. I told the security that I was a type 1 diabetic and my insulin pump is what made it alarm. The security didn't understand what my pump was and kept saying I alarmed the machine and they had to pat me down. I repeated that I had an insulin pump, but because they couldn’t see it, they still didn’t get it. I got so fed up with it that I pulled up my dress and basically flashed them. I told them that this was my pump and it was attached to me and that is what made the alarm go off. They looked at each other and just nodded at me and let me let me through. The look on their faces were priceless and they seemed to be more embarrassed than me!

When I was diagnosed I thought my life was over. I got very depressed and even went to therapy for it. At the time, my therapist told me something that I HATED. It made me so angry and I thought she was stupid because of it. She said, ‘You need to mourn. It is as if the old you is dead, and you are starting over as a different person. You need to feel sad and learn to accept the death of who you used to be. Then you’ll be able to accept the new life you have.’ Now looking back. She was right. You need to feel sad, and mourn your life before diabetes. Once you can do that, you are able to accept your new life and live your life to the fullest. I love the person I am now, and without diabetes I wouldn’t be the same resilient, hard working, and empathic person I am today.”